I found this site a few days ago and I can't tell you how it has helped me. We recently had to put our mom in a NH in order to save our dad, who has been taking care of her since she was diagnosed with Alzheimer's about 7 years ago. My dad, sister and I go to see her every day and my brother goes on weekends(he works out of town) and it is heartbreaking to leave her there begging to go home ... although the home she remembers, they haven't lived in for 10 years. It's very hard for me to say 'out loud' the many things that are ALWAYS going through my head, reading what others have to contribute help me to truly believe that there ARE others who understand how I feel. I am grateful for everyone sharing their stories.