For all she has done to help me in the past, and what she has done she always had a motive !for! nothing was ever done by her out of the kindness of her heart, she always helped me financially so I would be indebted to her and always have to come back whether I want to or not! any advice or comments to help me deal with the lethalness, and low self-esteem I feel non-stop, besides therapy? which I already go to! I think I need it though 24/7 round the clock, just not possible!
thanks to whoever reads this and comments!