Sitting vigil at my Mama's deathbed she is 96 and has dementia, possible liver cancer. Just got her on Hospice a day ago and tonight was her first dosage of Morphine. I have temporarily moved out of my home and in with my brother to help care for Mama. It is so sad to watch a once strong, feisty, independent woman waste away, I feel so helpless. I had to leave the room twice today so she would not see me break down and cry. I freaked my bachelor brother out when he saw me cause I was close to hysterics. I got it together and went back in the room. She has refused food, water, sleeps about 18 hours a day and talks of other people here with us when it is only me and my brother. I have other siblings but two are not in good health and the other one can't be here because her husband is ill. I had to send an email to my son who my Mama helped me raise. Not heard back it is so late right now but he did tell me to let him know when I thought the time was near. I'm not God but she has all the signs of end of life. I physically feel like I'm not going to make it. I can't sleep or eat either due to being on alert and my bed is right next to her. Afraid she will need me and I won't hear her. Please pray for me.