couldnt stay in moms lonely house, came home to my place. its kinda fun starting over again. as soon as the internet was in i was home. first morning no coffee pot or coffee. second morning had coffee. last night dragged the electric range in and wired it up. promptly fried pancake. tonight i hooked up my ice maker. just little things. starting over is so humbling. oh and i stuck 40 bucks worth of food in the fridge tonight. still havent plumbed up shower , kitchen sink or shitter. i started out here 13 years ago crappin in a bucket and i have no problem doing it again. i live in my own basement. gonna leave the renter girl upstairs. she pays the mortgage, i live for the cost of my portion of the utilities and property taxes. i live in a bunker with 16 inch thick walls. if hitler had had such substancial digs hed still be alive today. miss my mom, love my own self determination. cant do anything rash cause every day is chimney building. work has to come first. the garage is almost clean enough to get the trikes in out of the rain. life is going to get better.
It's probably a little surreal, right now, after the cray cray life you have been living for so long.I would guess you still have to think twice, before you go somewhere.....it taking a second or two, to remember you are free to go as you please. Please go. Get on that trike and take a nice long ride. While you do, try to remember as many of our screen names as you can and speak them out loud.
Do it for us, so we can live vicariously through you and do it for yourself, so you can know how many of us you have helped, supported, and sometimes pissed off. Count the people whose lives you have touched and made better. Us, surely, but your Mom is at the top of that list.
Again...Your'e a hell of a good man Captain Hard Ass! It's time to be good to yourself.
took me a longtime to get my pa s room cleaned out ... couldnt dare to go in there without crying . expecting to see pa lay in bed with a smile and hear him say good morning baby girl ...
life gets better and some days it just sucks .
enjoy ur trike !!! XOXO
either way, as an elder reaches their last weeks and days the carer is reduced to a no esteem blithering maniac. you cant see the future, of course not youve lost a kings ransom in wages. once your life belongs to you again youll astound yourself at how quickly you can repair. please be kind to your care recipient. its all temporary . give them all youve got, youll be at peace after they pass.
Henry David Thoreau