This is not so much a question, as it is me looking for support. My Grandma is 102 years old. I have always looked up to her. I always found it so neat that she was able to cut grass, work in the yard, drive a car, and do everything on her own until she was 98 years old. Yep. You read that right. She is the feistiest woman I have ever known. Unfortunately at the age of 98, she suffered a fall, breaking her foot, and injuring her back which even after it healed, it led to arthritis which made it impossible for her to do anything that required standing for a great period of time or walking any distance which pretty much eliminated all the activities she so enjoyed. Still these past 4 years she kept her feisty attitude and continued to stay on top of everybody's business... But from her chair.
This summer, she went into the hospital because she was having fainting spells. It was determined that her blood count was low, which can be fixed by medicine. Unfortunately, even with the medicine, she has continued to go downhill since then. A few weeks ago, she was put back in the hospital for pneumonia and a UTI. She recovered from both of those, but has gone even more downhill since then. She is no longer on top of everything like she used to be. She now sleeps about 18 hours a day and doesn't eat much of anything. We fix her a plate, she takes a few bites, and then says she's full. I honestly, don't know what is keeping her alive right now because she doesn't eat hardly at all.
We have all come to the conclusion that her body is just shutting down due to natural causes and old age. This is something that is very hard for me to accept. For one, this will be the first death in the family since my dad passed away 13 years ago, and to put things nicely, him and I were not close, and I was living on the other side of the country at that time. This is the only grandparent I have ever known, the rest of them all died young, either before I was born or when I was very young. I also worry that she is the glue that is holding the family together. I know for a fact that when she passes, our family definitely won't be the same. I just wish I could see into the future, and see just exactly how much time she has left. A week? 3 months? 6 months? I just want to know what to expect. But, I know that that is not possible. I don't really know what the purpose of me posting this is. I guess I just needed to get my thoughts out. Maybe somebody will read this, maybe nobody will.