My Mother has been suffering from a combination of mental issues for several years but has gotten extremely worse in the past 2 years. I have been taking care of her finances, her Dr. appointments, her medicine , and just being her only companion since my father passed away 7 years ago. We had grown so close that I found myself finishing her sentences when her speech got stuck!
I have no children but have been married for 46 years to a very understanding husband that encourages me to spend as much time as I want with Mom. I have 3 brothers that all have their own families (children and grandchildren) that help fixing things around the house but really no quality time with her.
A few weeks ago I was shocked that my Mother did not remember who I was. Not just my name but my whole life. I can show her pictures of her and I and she doesn't recognize me or that I am even her daughter. I CANNOT stop crying over this! I feel I have lost the most important person I love in my life. I had promised her she would never go to a nursing home while I was alive but I keep finding myself feeling depressed , jealous, and just plan worthless! I moved in with her about a month ago 24/7 with no relief from anyone which I never really asked for but I find myself continuing to try and get her to remember me. My brothers have decided that she needs to go to a nursing home. How do I get rid of the guilt, jealousy that I'm the only one she doesn't remember after spending all these years doing NOTHING else besides being with her! HOW CAN SHE JUST FORGET ME COMPLETELY!? I know it's the disease doing this but I feel like I'm taking it too personally but I'm so hurt all I do is cry!! Help !!!! My best friend Mom and total support system is gone!