I am so sad and tired. The frustration and struggle has now turned to guilt that I should have been perfectly sweet this whole time because it really was limited. But, I’m human and I haven’t slept well in almost 7 months, I tried my best. We are now here taking care of just grandma and yet again adjusting to a new routine. My mom took so much time and energy. I miss her so much and trying not to beat myself up that I wasn’t perfect. She certainly wasn’t a perfect mother, alcoholism destroyed our family. Funny how I don’t care at all now. Just want to say thank you to everyone on this forum. I know I’ll be back I still have grandma to take care of. Sending love to all the good hearted and caring people that respond to these posts and take care care of their families- in the best ways that they can.