It never ends. Ground hog day, over and over. Pee on the floor, poop all over the toilet, toothpaste all over the walls, potato chips on the bathroom floor(?), oatmeal on the refrigerator, floor and counters, tea and honey from one end to the other.....I know some of you know what I'm talking about. Add FILS unwillingness to exercise, drink water, eat meals. The constant sound of a walker shwacking the walls, the shuffle of feet all hours of the day and night, the daily confusion, conversations of poo, Depends, the sounds of Adam 12 over and over every day. The obsession with tissues,socks and bowels....I could go on and on but you get the picture.
How to cope with this insanity of caring for FIL 24/7? I do pretty well most days but lately I'm restless, irritable and discontent. I pray, I try to stay in the moment (to not freak out that I'll be doing this for 20 YEARS), I practice acceptance - tolerance,patience and love. Yet some days I just want to scream, run away, quit. Today is one of those days. Will I do any of those? No. I will however thank each and everyone of you. You provide me a sense of not being alone in this crazy planet of caregiving, give me hope I can continue on and do my best, give me a place to scream if not out loud then with my venting written words. So..... Thank you. Here's to another day of being of service to others. God Bless us all.