My grief is overwhelming. I feel so alone without her here with me. The last 2 years dealing with her dementia and dealing with my daughters special needs I basically I buried my emotions and did what I was supposed to do as a daughter and a mother. When her dementia started I remember being so devastated because this disease turned my bestfriend into someone I never knew. The strong woman that was my rock disappeared slowly as I came to grips with what was happening. I will miss our long talks about my job, the way she encouraged me to keep advocating for my child when I disagreed with IEP reports. We were a unit. Mom, me and daughter. I feel depressed and lost but feel like I cant break down because I have a daughter who needs me. Preparing my moms funeral was the hardest thing I ever had to do. Does the pain of losing your loved one ever ease up? I feel like im just existing at this point. Its like a part of me died inside when she left. I know she is in no more pain but the pain I feel hurts so much.