Recently Mom has started complaining about everything and everyone...I mean hours on end. She likes watching "Bitchin' Rides" and "Gas Monkey Garage" but complains non stop, while it's on, about all the tattoos the guys have; then asks me to repeat what they said and when I do she starts in again about the tattoos while I'm talking. She then complains I don't let her speak her mind when she asks me to answer while I try to answer in less than 10 words.
When we're out, she just blurts out so & so is fat or has buck teeth or has too many tats or piercings. I'm also playing with getting her to shower' at least once a week; but it hasn't happened yet. It's been 3 months and she washes good everyday but now she has contact dermatitis from not showering. I offer to help her wash, like being a pampered rich woman but she says I'm treating her like she's disabled. I have ordered a temp sensitive color changing shower head (Blue is cool, Green is warm, Red is Hot) that also displays the temp w/extra long hose that might entice her to shower; it will be here in a few days hopefully.
She wants to get out but when we do, she starts to gripe about her back, so we go back and I drop her off then Try to leave to go back to finish shopping, I get this guilt trip. Now that the weather is getting warmer, she is complaining about having the A/C on. If it's under 80 degrees, she wants the heat on but I sleep in the middle of the day (I work from 10p to 10a) and with having to have the windows closed to try and mitigate the noise outside on top of having the windows covered w/black construction paper because I have a terrible time sleeping during the day, It gets hot upstairs. If it's 75 outside at 1p, by 3p it's near 85 upstairs. Now for the last 3 weeks, she's only sleeping maybe 3-4 hrs from 4a-8 or 9a then the cycle starts all over again. We just went to her neurologist and she is starting on Seroquel at night, one after dinner and another 4 hours later and a different pill at lunch which he's hoping will curb her agitation during the day.
A nursing home is out of the question at the moment because of monetary restraints and I only have help Fri-Sun 2p-6p when I need to get sleep for work from a home nursing agency. I'm barely holding it together and I mean barely. I know that because as I'm typing this I'm trying not to get emotional.
I know I have to do what I need to do to keep Mom healthy and comfortable as much as possible I'm starting to have a problem keeping my balance and the last 3 days, it's also literally. After 6-8 hrs of this, I get so stressed I'm getting light headed. Tonight is my only time away from her when I shoot pool in leagues for about 4 hours. I know I'm well past my limit but I have to keep going it's just that I'm running out of ideas and energy.