I am losing it caregiving for my parents.

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Ok, I'm new here and perhaps in the wrong place. I am the only son (4 out of state sisters) of my 80ish parents who lives close enough to care for their daily needs. My father has had 3 heart attacks and fatal lung cancer (about a year to live) and my mother suffers from dementia. I am also the father of a 15 year old boy and husband to a wife who had breast cancer 2 summers ago. As a teacher, I was able to take a 1 year leave to care for those around me but, it is destroying my sense of self and the frustration and anger grows. My wife has been very understanding as I tend to my parents each day but I am loosing it. any help would be appreciated,
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msTish,
My personal opinion, and that is all it is, she does understand. My dad could be so unreasonable and act like he didn't have a clue, all it was was manipulation. The longer we talked about things, the longer it was before I took action. I would get so frustrated,and once again, things would get put on hold.
No matter how hard headed they can be at times, we do have to consider they are very afraid of change. Some elders feel that is the last stop, the nursing home.
And maybe your husband can take another look at "taking care of her" and what that could mean. He can be very active in her care if she goes to a facility. I recommend he be very involved, as not all nursing homes are what they could be.
Ask him if his father would want your health and sanity jeopardized? Would his father understand a change in plans?
I hope things start to go smoother for you. I can almost feel your anxiety coming thru your written words.
One final question, how much does it really matter that she understands? If you are waiting for her to say, "hey, that's a great idea", I doubt that is going to happen. You and your husband can come up with something that works for everyone involved. you are in my thoughts and prayers.Take care of yourself.....
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lindam, thanks for listening, these pages feel like the only people in the world that truly understand.Today is a better day. Husband saw the post, got very frightened that i would run.Trying to make mom understand seems to be a big hurdle. Funny though, her mind is right on, its her body that has failed.So I don't understand why its so hard for her to understand thee postion we are in.Thanks again I truly appriciate all who visit this site.
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Sandy,
Thanks for sharing that load you are carrying. You do have your hands full. I know what it is like to be around someone who is never satisfied. The negativity gets to me too. I start getting angry and when my feelings are raw from being tired, I start taking things personal. Have you told your husband how hard this is for you? I don't want to be rude, but if he made the promise, then he should be doing more. Taking up for you for one. Has he told her she needs to stop being so demanding,ect?
Maybe you should take her to a nursing home and let her hear from the staff how expensive care is. If she doesn't want to go to a nursing home, or assisted living, then tell her there has to be changes made.
You have to save yourself, you have to get your medical issues tended to. I am sorry to hear your husbands work is slow. This is a very scary time for many.But there are clinics in all areas for lower income families.
I had to use one when I first moved here because of Hurricane Rita. I had to start all over. So my heart goes out to you for all the extra stress that money shortage brings.
You just keep posting. It does feel good to get it out and to know someone really hears us and understands how we feel. I pray you have a better outlook tomorrow. Let us know how you are. Take better care of yourself, you are not alone.....
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lindam, thanks for listening, sometimes i feel so alone., my situation is she is 83 GREEK, stubborn, and very, very resentful that i am doing all this. She is my mother-in-law of 10 yrs, husband helps somewhat. Most of the daily routine is up to me. she is mentally exausting, nothing is right that i do, she would do everything different, we moved into her home to take care of her, she still owns her home, in the state of maine nursing home is out, state will take all assets and this is unacceptable to her. She pays me 250 a week, but i buy all food, including personal items she needs (yes she does have a nice nest egg in bank and stocks), she also thinks i should give her receipts of what i buy with this 250 weekly pay check.my husband is a tile setter, in this economy not much work , he has been taking alot of odd jobs, but this money barely covers are own personall expenses.. He is also feeling the hit to or life,, we both feel this is putting a strain on us..His family does not help at all, Brother has papers to be POA she refuses to sign thinking we are all going to take all her money,, me I want nothing but out.. My health is suffering, i have problems i am not addressing because financially i can't. I hate my life, but 12 years ago before me, my husband made a promise to his father before his death that he wold take care of her in the end of her life,,Why can't she understand wHAT we have given up to be here, she has no clue when we tell her nursing homes are about 5000 a month, she thinks we are lying,, trust me i have been looking into this for months,I don't know why this site helps so much, just getting it out to cyber friends makes me feel like i can go on at least for tomorrow, that you for listening, sandy...
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msTish,
You tell them like you just posted. If you truly do not think you can do this anymore, then do what you have to. I don't know the situation, but I know you have to save yourself. It is not bad or wrong to accept our limitations. Be brave and do what needs to be done. If the family gets upset, then they will just be upset. We can not take care of everything, everyone, and control outcomes. So try to rest for awhile before telling family, it will help you to be stronger and mean what you say. Let us know how things are working out for you.
It is a hard choice but I admire your honesty and you realize something has to change. you are in my prayers.
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hi everyone, been awhile. mom had a small stroke and was gone for 2 weeks, lucky me a much needed vacation. here is the problem with that . shes been home for 2 days and the list of things that are wrong or missed placed is getting to big for me, i am loosing ny mind again. She promised 3 days outpatient rehab, of course not now i'm not going. to cold ,don't feel like it, ..nothing has been chnged or misplaced since she left but she will not believe this fighting me every step. I want out and i don't know how to tell this family i can't do this anymore, I trully beliive i am at my breaking point..
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grandmother is not depressed because grandfather was in bad shape he had a stroke and heart attack 5 years ago and she had to wait on him fix his plate remind he to take meds she kicked him out of her room because she said he kept her awake. Before the stroke and heart attack he did most everything. Now she feels like it is her time to be waited on she even enjoyed being at the hospital. She didn't want to come home until the nurses got tired of her pushing the button for every little thing, she was up and around then and capable.
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Dare, of course you are depressed! I'm so glad you found the site so you can at least talk with people who know what you are going through - and plenty on here do. None of us have exactly the same experience, but they are close enough to share.

Please check with your state's aging services to see if there is any respite care available. There are Federal dollars that go to waste in some areas, as people don't know they can get help. Go to the state's main site and look for something on aging or elders. You should be able to find a phone number. You need to get out for a break.

Yes, your grandmother will be upset. She wants everything done the way you do it (we've been there). But you have to stick up for yourself. You grandmother is likely depressed since the death of her husband, as well. It's possible a doctor may be able to try an antidepressant for her. At any rate, keep coming back to talk and try to get some help.

Carol
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Hi Dare I know how you feel my mom is 89 and she barely walks with a walker,she is constantly asking for things and some times the samr things over and over like today is really getting to me for some reason I cant seem to take a breath and relax,this site is great keep checking in and you will get some relief.
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thanks for the input. To answer a few questions no she can't walk, she can see but she can't see the paper very well. She is bored i bought her large print word search she likes that. My oldest child in away in college and 15 year old is on the football team (stays after school for practice) the 14year old is in jrotc and riffle team and stays after school for practice. I do have sitters at night but can't afford day pay as well. I don't have any family to help at all. It is hard to get out of the bed knowing what i get to do all day.
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