Attempting to let go of resentment towards siblings.

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I've been the primary caregiver for my aging parents for over ten years. Thankfully they could afford assisted living but I have been the go to person for everything else. My siblings have never consistently helped much but i reached the worst burnout ever after my mother's last hospital stay. My Dad passed away and now my Mom is in real decline. I finally reached out to my 3 siblings and asked for more help.The 2 that live close stepped up at least for now. I asked the one who lives far away to create or get help creating a an online calendar so everyone can pitch in in some kind of organized way. It's been 10 days and she hasn't been "able" to get it really functioning and I have spent more time emailing her that it's still not working than i would have just setting it up myself. I am furious. After reading all these helpful posts I realized I am beating a dead horse here and just making myself more miserable than i already am. I wrote her an email and told her how disappointed I am that she couldn't do the one ting I asked. But after this I will no longer ask her for anything. Although I know it's really her loss but I can't help but feel like I have lost my desire to want be close with her. It's sad. I can't make her who she isn't. She even heads a senior program for her church if that isn't ironic! Some things will never make sense.

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I like how you used those words "letting go of my expectations of siblings." That's exactly what I was trying to get! I tend to use too many words trying to get my point across. It really does make a difference, doesn't it? I'm not as bitter and angry and resentful to my brother of next door. Actually, I was beginning to hate them all. But once you let go those expectations, it really helps us! Thanks for updating us...I'm glad too that your mother is improving. Take care!
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Since I posted this as a discussion subject there have been so many great posts! I think I've made some really good progress in letting go of my expectations of siblings. In the end it's really the ONLY thing we can do to make ourselves feel better when others don't help. My mother's health has improved for now thankfully.
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I learned from this site the importance of accepting that my siblings will not help me with my 2 bedridden parents. They did not help for the 23 yrs I helped father with mom (Alzheimer.) Last year, due to stress as main caregiver to mom, father had a stroke. I foolishly thought that family (7 siblings) will step up and help me care for 2 bedridden parents. (Mom is completely vegetable state , 100% unresponsive, oxygen, trache, stomach tube and needs constant suctioning of both throat and mouth or she chokes on it.) I asked oldest sis to help Mon-Friday while I work fulltime. One brother sent me $100/month. Other than that - nothing. I have asked, begged for help, threatened to walk out, and latest was Googling to find the surest way to commit suicide without pain. It took me almost 1 year before I found it online. I have told various family members about Googling suicide but I guess they just didn't care to help parents or that I was going to kill myself.

Just past May/June, I decided It Is Time. I chose the date, where and when it was going to happen. But there was a part of me that still wanted to live. (All my life I have struggled with depressions/suicidal thoughts.) I just was sooooo tired of caring for parents and family of next door (6 adults) just would not help but treated our land/property as if it's theirs.

I cried and cried and remembered this site. I came on and told my story. I got some very great advice. Advice that I did not want to accept but if I wanted to live, I will need to do these. And I did. Our siblings have a Right Not to Help with our parents. Our parents should have planned for their old age. I chose to care for them (even though it was with reluctance - it was still my decision.) Just because I chose to help the parents doesn't mean that my siblings should. They have the choice to help or not. So, accept this and move on. ... And you all, it really does help A LOT!! when you finally accept that siblings will not help. So, I've learned to accept help, encouragement and advice on this site, and now with the monthly caregiving meetings, and pretty soon (if I can find a therapist) a one-to-one therapy session. I am no longer so angry (every time I see them!) and no longer resentful. About a month after accepting this, even my sister noticed the change in me. She asked me about it. So she said that she will be angry with our siblings on my behalf! Oh, sis is my emotional outlet. My emotional support.... So, I agree with everyone here - siblings haven't help, they will never help. Well, never say never. Who knows? Maybe one day, they will grow a heart and a conscience.
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I used to try to get my siblings to help out, but found out no help is better than them just coming to make trouble between mom and me. The negative people in your life are who will wear you down the most! So be careful what you wish for, sometimes no contact is better than visits used to destroy trust and love that is there.
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thisgirlstired, It will make you a whole lot happier when you do!! And a much STRONGER person because you did!! Way to go!! It sure made me feel a weight lift off my shoulders when I finally did the same thing with my SIL,she was, and still is a narsassistic VIPER !! Take care of yourself... and Godbless =)
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When it is our family it is so hard to remember this: we have to respect the choices other people make, no matter what they are, if we want others to respect our choices. It isn't our business why people make their choices, and not our place to tell them why we think they will regret them later.
I spent a couple years allowing the situation that my husband and I are in with his siblings almost kill me emotionally. They both are local, one 10 minutes the other under an hour and neither was coming by unless there was a handout. When the county almost condemned the house for hoarding/safety/health reasons my husband and I finally were permitted to renovate and clean it up. We saved the house with no help (we did work ourselves, my healthcare keeps us broke) and watching my husband work 10 hrs at work and every other minute working on house made me angry when siblings refused help.
One day I asked myself why I was giving them so much power? We were doing this for his parents out of love, not guilt or obligation, I was raised differently than that, but that was normal for this family. I placed a protective barrier around us from them (they always blame the person who is helping for doing something wrong) The boundaries are clear: if they act up, raise their voices or complain, they can leave. If they want to go to court and get POA and care of parents away from us...OK...go for it, we won't stand in your way, but they will care for them in their own homes, not the parents'. Once my husband and I agreed to stick to rules & consequences for his family, it has been great! We simply said: if you think we are doing something to harm them in any way, call the authorities and let them investigate. That took their perceived power over us away from them.
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Thanks for all the great and wise comments! I feel on the road to letting go of my one sibling's in particular behavior and lack of help. I think I took of the last vestiges of rose colored glasses I had on about her. And painful as it was to see her in a new light, I now feel relieved that I understand the degree to which she is really a narcissist and always had been. Our relationship was great as long a I was her handmaiden. I am going to relieve myself of that duty and focus on the care of my Mom who needs the help.... Thanks again!
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you all are AWESOME!!!! as hard as this is I have had to do this EVERY day towards my one & only bro cause I know this is the right thing to do. My emotions however wants to hold on to offense but this only makes me more miserable so keep forgiving & letting go so YOU are free you have enough to focus on GOD bless you all
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I took care of my mom for several years. Because of my mental disability, I needed help from my bro and sis. They got mad. Took mom from her BF, her apt. and have banned me from talking to or seeing her. All I needed was help and they wouldn't do it. I told them they had to make other arrangements because I couldn't do it on my own anymore. I'm repaid with no contact of her. And what's worse, my mom can't see or talk to me. We were best friends. So, I did do for my mom for over six years then they stepped in and said forget me.
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Dear thisgirlistired and others above who have useless siblings,
I'm so sorry that your siblings are like that. Family dynamics with each individual sibling is always different with Mom and Dad. I am the youngest of three kids and I was/is the primary CG of Mom and Dad. Dad passed just this past May and Mom is now in hospice, but that doesn't necessarily mean that all the stress, pain, depression has gone away. It hasn't and in many ways its worse cause I want Mom at home for me to take care of her. But I am blessed with such loving and helpful brother and sister who help me out in every way possible. They are honest, loving, compassionate and helpful. But there were arguments and disagreements nonetheless. Since I am the youngest, for some reason I am the most loving and compassionate toward Mom and Dad than they could ever be. They always told me that they could not do what I am doing, and even though they helped in tons of ways, they all told me that I have the toughest of the jobs, and they are right. We all allocated the different jobs before everything "hit the fan" with Mom and Dad. We all have different abilities. Strength comes in many different forms. Unfortunately, the actual hands on caregiving is to me, is the toughest job in the world and it takes a very special type of person/character to do it. I could only do it with the Lord's enabling. Most people cannot do it, and its really not their fault....well, sometimes it is when some siblings cannot even visit, or help out even a little bit, or go on vacations when Mom could be dying. There are so many things your siblings could do---like do what you ask of them--like that calendar thing. And the brother who thinks that he can take Mom out on excursions just shows how out of the loop he is on Mom's physical condition. If he came and visited Mom in a timely and loving manner, he would know that what he wants to do with Mom is impossible. I too had to "educate" my sister and brother on many things cause if you don't spend 24/7 with them at the very least for one or two days, they won't have a clue of how to care for Mom and Dad. That must of drove you into a rage, it would me.
I agree with those above who said to just write them off. If they won't help on their own initiative, they won't suddenly change their tune and run to help Mom or you out. Asking and asking won't help. They're not deaf and blind, dumb maybe, and they know you need help, I guess they just don't care. But if you keep expecting them to change and help out, it puts extra stress and pressure on you cause you'll constantly be expecting and waiting for them to come to your aid--which obviously hasn't happened. Telling them one time should be enough for them to step up to the plate. Telling them over and over is like talking to a brick wall. Take the advice above, let them go, the burden of you waiting and waiting and expecting them to come to your aid will lessen the burden on you and will help you out in organizing things yourself instead of imagining/hoping that they will take on some of the responsibility. God bless you. The Lord see's what you're doing, how you are feeling, and He will help you---just humbly ask Him for help. He see's what your siblings are doing. You will be blessed mightily now and in the end--you will see that.
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