When arrests are made in my son's murder I may be called upon to raise his ( now ) 3 yr old son. I was tricked into court much earlier and put on stand to yay or nay my intentions regarding nick. I told the court " a little later on " which they know meant justice first. My statement was even quoted when Nick's mother petitioned the Indiana appeals court regarding Nick being given mine and Jake's surname .
I'm not a saint but I know his future guardianship will boil down to who is most capable of instilling in him the values that Jake held dear. Sometimes it feels like wild savages stole someone from my camp and its only fitting that the offspring be returned to me.
Raising a kid at my age ( 61 ) is an extremely tall order . I'm not that confident in my ability to do such but if our judge deems my home the best he can find for Nick I will do exactly as he orders and with the utmost dedication and sincerity. The judge is a wise man and in fact a specialist in juvenile and family affairs. Nicks father helped to build this home. There's no one more deserving of taking refuge here and one day owning it.
The alternative is my ex who has already sorely failed a drug screen and lives in a faux ' biker ' commune. It's a cesspool in a county of staunch conservatives .