I haven't been on, i thought i would. But it is still so very hard. I cried and cried and cried when daddy died. After the dust had settled. I still cried profusely for 3 weeks. Still am periodically. But its getting better. I am proud of what i was able to accomplish. I never ever thought i would have been able to handle all the funeral and planning as calm as i did. It went smoothly. I would like to still be a part of this group. But, as the caregiver to daddy. It is still fresh. Thinking of you all, hang in there. Your stronger than you think you are!