Really having the internal struggle today. In my head, I know that my Mom, even though she hates Assisted Living, is being cared for. She is being fed, has made some friends, gets her meds like she should, etc. As her Frontal Lobe Dementia/Delusional Disorder continues to progress, there will be psychiatric care available to her.
In my heart however, I feel guilty and bad for a Mom who was taken from her home to a Facility that is over an hour away in the middle of nowhere. She has nothing to look forward to and will likely die there. Her depression has worsened. She calls and guilt trips me saying "You're not doing enough to get me out of here", or "You act like you don't even care if I go home". I just keep telling her to follow through with her doctor's appointments and try to stay active and help and take care of herself, when deep down, I know she will never leave there, kind of misleading her.
Its a tough road. I do feel relief that the daily caregiving burden is now being done by someone else, but feel guilty at the same time. I'm only visiting once a month now, because I can't deal with constant talk of "what I need to do so she can go home". I'm sure many of you deal with the same thing daily. I'm glad we are all here of each other!