Well I brought my Mom home from assisted living as she wasn't doing well with the extra isolation due to a staff Covid scare. And guilt....hard to see your mom in distress on video and not be able to help.
Long story short fast forward to now. It's been over six weeks and realizing that I can't live like this with her. Her dementia has progressed more and now she she going back not to Assisted Living but Memory Care.
So the facility is accepting her back tomorrow. And after a "I think I should go home today" statement I said, "Ok, I have time tomorrow, lets get you packed up" and I brought out the suitcase and was going to let her help me pack.
I want to go home immediately morphed into tears, and what have I done? and I dont want to leave.... I packed the suitcase. I moved it to my room so she can't unpack it in the night.
We have to go for her second Covid test to eliminate the isolation period. Luckily her first test result from Monday came back negative in one day.
Straight from Covid test to facility. And I can't go inside with her. She will be going in with staff member to a new room.
This is going to kill me.