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My father had a stroke January 2018. He's always lived with me off and on because he had always relied on others to support him and I am the only one in my family who will help him. He became paralyzed on his left side when he had his stroke but still is very weak so I literally do everything for him. Bathe, prepare food, clean him when he has a bowel movement and much more. Everything. But my problem is my dad had always been abusive. Not physically but in ALL other ways. He tells me to die all the time. To f*ck off and pretty much anything you can think of. I had to quit my job to take care of him because insurance (Medicaid) would only pay 2 weeks worth of care. I have 2 children and now it's getting really hard to support them because I had to quit my job and now everything revolves around my dad. I'm not the mom I want to be and I'm getting so depressed because I'm stuck here and I can't have a life. I know this makes me sound so bad and I don't mean for it to. I'm just so lost at what to do. He is mean and always has been. I wait on him hand and foot and he never thinks to say please or thank you. He doesn't ask he DEMANDS. If I don't do something he wants he becomes angry and freaks out. He'll start yelling and punching the walls etc. For example he takes a pain medication and I keep it away from him and give it to him as prescribed. Well, he does not like that so he said he wanted his pills where he could get them himself and I have no choice but to do that because he will scream at me and call me a b*tch and stuff if I don't and I don't want my children hearing all that. So, I did it. I have him his meds. He took 30 days worth of pain meds in less then 2 weeks. He's always been that way even before his stroke. I hate it. I've always hated it. And if I report him to the Dr he will flip out like usual. He's supposed to be wearing a heart monitor also and every other day he rips it off out of anger. This all is not because of the stroke he was the exact same as before his stroke except he's paralyzed on one side completely. He tells me he hates me all of the time (nothing new). There's so much. I thought I could do this but he's making this so hard and I swear he is wanting to give me a hard time. I know him better than anybody. I KNOW. Nobody in my family will help. When he was in a nursing home for 2 weeks (all Medicaid would cover) he treated the nursing staff with the up most respect. Never said anything bad. And I mentioned it to him. I don't deserve this! Since 2012 I have been financially taking care of him and housing him even though he was perfectly capable of doing it himself up until this year. He's always treated me like this. And now it's just becoming too much. I have a sister and a brother and he treats them like they are God's even though they REFUSE to help me with our Father. I don't understand it. I'm the only one who has ever helped him but I get the abuse. He has been diagnosed with bi polar and all that also. I will not lie if I found a way I could put him into a home I would. He even said he wants to go. But I can't pay for that and insurance isn't helping. Hes even said that if there was ever a day where he started getting movement back in his paralyzed side he wouldn't tell me. What is up that?? Even though he treats me Terrible I would still want him to get good care and good facility I just have no idea where to start with this because this is so hard. If anyone has any answers or anything I would appreciate it.

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You know what. You are a good person. You are a VERY good person. You just got dealt a hand with a shitty dad. I also live a life thats taking care of one ungrateful parent. My brother and sister walk on waters in mom's eye's, while I don't get as much as a thank you. It's a shitty life. But please hold close to your heart that your a good daughter. I hope there really is a god. I hope that we're earning our wings. But ya know what? We'd still take care of them and only want good things for them even if there wasn't. Cause we're good people! Good luck.
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Don't know what to add to the excellent advice already posted. Caring for a narcissistic parent can destroy your health, finances and your relationships.
He needs to be cared for in a facility, it will be better for him as he will get appropriate care and may recover some mobility and it is imperative for you and your children to have a life vs all of you going down on a sinking ship.
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You are not the good daughter that takes care of him.
You are the abused daughter that chooses to take care of him.
It doesn’t matter if he has had a stroke, if he was always mean. He is out of control now.
Call APS and tell them he will have to be out of your home in 2 weeks.
You can no longer handle him and your kids are being exposed to too much aggression.
Then stick to it. No one can make you care for him. Call the sheriff if you have to and have him transferred to the hospital ER for admittance for a psych evaluation.
Tell them he cannot come back to your home as you cannot care for him.
Now, if you have been living off his money or property, you will have to stop.
I speak from experience, and sympathy.
An alternative idea: call a social worker for yourself and get their advice about this situation in your state.
A great big hug for you. This will be the most difficult thing you have ever done. Your kids and you will be able to have a life.
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Do your kids help out with the care?
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Yes, about to be 48
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Your dad is 47? OmG!
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Rainmom- he is 47...

Thank you all for your input
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Just to add to all the wise advise and direction above--

you don't sound "bad". You sound sane. Why would ANYONE take abuse like this?

Get him out of your home, asap!
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How old is your father?
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Call your county area aging agency and request a social worker do a needs assessment and have your father placed - I'm not sure if you mean Medicare or Medicaid wouldn't pay beyond two weeks as Medicare is limited and your father certainly sounds as though he would qualify for long term Medicaid assistance
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