discovering how much weight I have lost. I am really struggling. I love my husband but with his father here he tells me what I said is wrong don’t do this. I can’t deal with losing our relationship too. I just brought it to his attention that I am having a hard time figuring out what I am supposed to say to him or how much I am to help him. I get in trouble with care taking as we are all dealing with. he is a caretaker too. he has been taking care of me with all my health issues and addiction. so he is trying to make sure I don’t overdo it. I know I have a huge issue of not taking care of myself. I also posted about all the issues I am having with getting things paid in network for my mom. it’s like things are piling up. I actually have been to 5 AA meetings in 5 days and today at the last moment I had to add to what I said and it was I am going to sit still so you guys can help me. a friend from the program told me that. I expressed that i have missed my connection to them and my life is even worse than usual. you know what i mean and i told them about the sale. some knew what i was talking about maybe not everyone. I said i have decided to stay here and take care of myself rather than be there and see everything leave. most important my brother. but tonight after my husband and i were talking about all this. i said i will be going down tomorrow and i will take my doggie with me and i will be back friday afternoon. he was like what. I told him i can’t be there. obviously we haven’t had any time alone. he thought he was then coming saturday to cut grass and work on the plumbing and he would spend the night. I am so confused I don’t know what to do. plus I asked him what are we doing with his dad. he was taking him out to his other brothers. I don’t think that is going to work out with my sil. she really doesn’t like my fil. the plus is we could have some time together. if anyone has any suggestions please please help me out. thank you guys.