Almost feeling like a slow death. I've been beaten down so much by my family (including negative words from my mother that hurt so much), that I don't think I'll ever recover from this kind of disrespect, degrading, hateful history. Along the way I sought help from councelors, etc. and none can replace the happy, loving person I use to be. I use to see life as a beautiful experience, but everything is so gone/empty... I truly have lost just about everything since I was the 'good' daughter. I've lost my family and 11 years of my youth during this time. There is so much damage in my heart I just don't know what my future has in store for me now that I've lost so much. It all scares me now (never thought this would ever happen to me). Does anyone have any light to shed on this? Do you ever regain your self identity again?