I have posted about this before as I have had several nightmarish trips to the ER with my dad (who has dementia) over the years.
Today the memory care called to tell me he has a fever and is kind of out of it, which is his go to when about to get sick...when he got pneumonia, kidney infection... in previous ER trips.
I just live with this fear of that call and another ER trip (alone) possibly in the middle of the night.. and then having to arrange 24/7 care for him while in the hospital.. I just dont know how many more of these I can survive.. god.. I pray it doesn't go that way this time.
He always seems to recover but it takes a chunk out of my soul each time... its so hard to deal with this for years and years with no end.
Just needed to vent...