Blocked phone numbers. He stopped any conversation with my cousin. I have been really good about letting go but then i found out that he has a townhouse right next to his daughter in Nashville. He is now a mailman. Yet they drive almost every weekend to cut grass. Sure is a lot of gas to cut grass. The house is off the market. But that’s not what’s really going on. I have had a lot of tears during a moment that I should be very happy and grateful which I am, on October 30 th i celebrated 6 years of sobriety. Everyone talked about my growth and how proud they were of me. In fact, a girl i just met got me a special coin and talked about how I have already changed her life. Well, my husband as you know is depressed and he is now going to therapy and going on medication. Well he has been very passive aggressive and short with me. Yes I was late from a meeting but there was no time we had set. So I get the pouting and I don’t love him or want to be with him. Then when we went to dinner to i asked him if he resented aa. He said he resents that I have to go there because it reminds him i am a drunk. This is off topic for a second. But I discovered this couple we used to be so close to (and I stoled his friend) have separated. They were married 31 years. He was lees partner when he started at the sheriff department. They both retired last year. He was a pastor so he lost that his house and his wife. So back on track. Last night I asked lee if I was an embarrassment that I was a recovering alcoholic. He said yes plus if I didn’t go to aa it wouldn’t be a reminder of me being an alcoholic . That really hurt. So? We got home he took two pieces of aluminum foil and separate them. He said look at this one as a life. Straight no creases. Now look at the other one all smoosh up. It has alcohol eating disorder and major illness. Which one would you want . I said there was no alcohol , eating disorder or illness in Barbie and Brian and there piece of foil is ripped apart. Everyone deals with something. But he said that isn’t us. It’s no one. He then hug me but I was hurt then he said when I told him about Brian and Barbie he was going to say that could be you. But he decided not to say anything. But yet he still did. I don’t know what to do, then in aa I have two meetings a month as gsr and I open the club on Monday. Even if his day off was Monday i would be home at the same time as usual. I am tired of crying, he said now you know what I went through. My friend said love him through it. Another said see if there’s any cho. Yet she thinks he controls me anyway. Thank you again for all your love and support.