My 90 year old mother passed in May. Prior to The Covid lockdown she had been living independently and doing very well. I live 30 minutes away and had been making window visits and arranging food deliveries. However, she had stopped eating and was declining and I intervened and in the end had to call an ambulance. She was hospitalised and diagnosed with pneumonia, inflamation and anemia. She contracted Covid in the hospital and declined further and passed away. I was unable to visit her in hospital since my husband was shielding although I was able to talk to her on the telephone. The funeral had only 10 of us in attendance. I feel so guilty but my mother chose not to tell me that she was declining and tried to give the impression that all was well. I loved my mother very much and did my utmost to help her practically and emotionally since my father's death 9 years ago. I am finding it very hard at the moment to come to terms with this.