So..I don't usually write, but just came back from visit to ALF. Mom was in bed and first words when we woke her were, 'can you find some way to get me out of here and home with you'? When I explained that I couldn't because we have to work and can't afford homecare, she let me know that she is in fear they don't want her to leave alive. When asked why she feels that way...no answer, just that fear is going to kill her. She got angry then accused me of being angry because of tone of voice. Even after 3 years she can still push the buttons! Frustrating, because, unlike many of the others, she can still carry on conversations, knows us, and seems fairly cognizant most of the time. I come home wondering if she is that bad. Seems like stormy weather affects their moods. She then proceeded to fall back asleep so we left. Unfortunately, mom is not one you can redirect. Thanks for lending an ear...this daughter just feels guilty right now that I can't fix my mom and go back in time and notice changes earlier.