Its been about 6 months that my mom passed on. And yesterday, I thought to myself that I am tired of grieving. I pretty much feel a ton better, every now and then the sadness creeps in. I wish she were still here. But I was thinking about my mom today. She suffered from terrible anxiety and depression during her adult years and had a nervous breakdown when I was 12. But I can see more clearly now how she clung to me and needed me after my dad died when I was 21, and my sister left a few years later, never to be seen again for the most part. I was it. I was the last in the immediate family left. So, now, I see that she kind of controlled me and kept me close. I really was her emotional caregiver for 30 years and the last 10 started to be her caregiver, financial support and the last year I did everything and got her into assisted living (which I regret) and watched her die for 2 months everyday at the hospital and nursing home. It was rough. But I see that now I can start living my own life. Although I need to figure out what I want to do. Curious what everyone has to say and their thoughts. Thank you all for your support!!!!