Oh, my god! I just lost it and my anger spewed out of me like an ugly vomitus. I am so so ashamed and I just can't make him understand how how sorry I am. I wanted to slap him and I said such awful and unkind things. The day started out so well. I was rested, had some extra energy to motivate me to pack and organize a few things for our move, and then about 2 pm things started to go downhill. I could list the issues, but nothing justifies the things I said. I need to have better tools for dealing with my self-pity and me me me attitude. I tried walking away, distracting, offering food, but I failed dismally. I feel so selfish.