My 81 year-old mother has ovarian cancer and mild to moderate dementia. I am 58, a retired teacher, and a substitute teacher since I retired. I have 2 siblings. Two of my grandchildren (ages 7 & 9) live with my husband and me. When my mom lived alone in her house, it was 50 miles from me and 5 miles from my siblings. When mom was diagnosed, I left my own home during the summer to live with her, manage her medications, take her to appointments, and basically take care of her daily needs. When we finally realized that mom could no longer live on her own (not eating properly, forgetting meds, managing finances, etc), we looked into assisted living facilities. My mom was totally against going to assisted living. I felt very bad about this, and even though our home is only 1200 square feet, my husband and I decided to move her in with us. I gave up my substituting job, but mom agreed to pay me the income that I lost. She has lived with us for 9 months now. I feel so guilty admitting this, but everything she does gets on my nerves. I can't even stand to hear her walker rolling across the floor anymore. I am at home with her every day, and have not spent one day alone in my house since she moved in. My husband and I have not been out to eat alone together in 4 months nor have we even made plans to do anything. My mom was the best mother in the world! She spent her life caring for her family and never cultivated any friendships. I have tried to get her interested in activities/hobbies, but she has no motivation to do anything. She is interested only in what we do. It seems that there is no privacy. She just stands and watches us. I tell her I will take her anywhere she wants to go, but she never wants to go anywhere for herself...but she always wants to ride along with me to run necessary errands. So basically my life is getting up early to get the kids off to school, staying home/caring for mom during the day, and then caring for kids and mom when school is out. I feel so guilty about my negative feelings towards her, especially since she was always so good to us. My 2 siblings have not once offered to have mom come to their homes for a weekend so that I could have a break, but then again, I have never asked, either. Are my negative feelings towards my mother normal? I feel so bad every day.