I am faced with the most difficult decision of my life.

Dear Naus, I am so sorry to hear about your Dad's health crisis. This must be very difficult for you, as you two have already been through so much. My prayers and with you and your Dad at this difficult time. Praying the peace of God can comfort you both, even in the midst of this trial. Praying the Doctors and medical staff have wisdom, and that your dear Dad will not suffer. Know we are here to support you. Sending many hugs. Much love, YOUR Secret Sister.

Naus, my heart and prayers are with you and your father. This will not be easy whatever the path, but I have faith that God will cover you and hold you in His Hands during this time. God's peace be with you.

Dear friend, you've been on my mind often today. I am praying for you and your Dad, and wonder how everything is going. I'll be vigilant, and on the night watches, too. Please know how much you're loved and cared for. Praying for your whole family. God be with you mightily.

Hi dear friends, I want to sincerely thank you so much for your kind words and prayers. You are angels. I am with my dad in a special hospice wing in the hospital. This hospital has the best cardiac care in the country. The hospice wing is new and just opened three days ago. My dad is the only patient here right now, and has two hospice nurses. They are so sweet and compassionate. His room has a view of a lake, and the chapel sky light with a golden bell at the top. You can see swans swimming in the lake. It is so peaceful and quiet here. They have a cd playing for him that is very soothing. They are making sure he is comfortable, and the family members too. He was in ICU all of yesterday, and all of today, but this evening before sunset was moved. I am now by myself, I sent family home to rest. My wonderful daughters brought back my laptop so I could check mail, and update friends and family. I had them remove his breathing tube, and all other devices that caused him discomfort, and they are just giving him some pain meds, to keep him from experiencing any discomfort. His stroke was massive, and from the brain scan I saw massive bleeding, and in the brain stem. His quality of life would be 24hr nursing care with a ventilator, and feeding tube. He would not want this, so I had this difficult decision to make. He is holding his own right now, and not ready to let go just yet. I have had his last rights read him, and have told him that he can go when he is ready, and that he will not be alone. There is severe damage, and very little response. Even so, I see him react to pain, when the tape was removed from his arms, or when they suction his mouth. I know that he knows I am here, but cannot respond. I see eye lid flutters when I talk to him, it seems he would like to open his eyes but cannot. I am spending the night. They have made a bed for me, next to his. I am going to go now so I can hold his hand. Right now, it's as if he is just sleeping, and snoring, so he seems peaceful. I assured him that no one will ever hurt him again, that I am taking care of everything for him, and for him to just rest peacefully. I hope he senses this in some way. I have to have faith that he can, and let God decide when to bring him home. Goodnight dear friends.

Naus, your Dad is so blessed to have such a wonderful daughter. The best to you both. In love and prayers.

Dear Naus, this is the exact same thing that happened to my dad a little over 2 years ago. You are doing the right thing,. Keep him comfortable and pray it will be okay it is his time to meet his savior and the savior will say to you well done my child. We love you and we know it hurts but on the other side of things know how relaxed and peaceful your Dad will be and his struggle for all things is over. Take a deep breathe and feel His precense and live the rest of your life knowing you are loved, caring and a special person for making your Dad's life secure in spite of many obstacles. I love you neon

Hi dear friends, Dad is still hanging in here. He is a fighter, always has been. This will take a long while I think. I will keep you updated my dear friends. You take care of yourselves, and hope all is well with you.

It took a week for my dad he slept thru the week with the morphine and sunday morning I stopped by on my way to church and he was wide eyed couldn't speak but had many questions in his eyes, I told him I would come back and bring mother it took me to 4 pm to get her together I thought we would miss him than when we got there he was awake for about 1 1/2 hours and had many questions so I just held his hands and talked to him and wiped my tears with his hands told him to go to the light and fifteen min later he had gone to the light. Very peaceful and pleasant way to leave, there are days I miss him and can feel his presence especially when I am doing something and I know he used to love to do it to. but they are good memories nothing hurtful. I try to remember the best of all and will do the same with my mother when her time comes. this is a transition we all have to make. Love to youNaus

Naus my heart goes out to you you are doing all the right things my husband was restless and was trying to talk and I told him I knew what he wanted and it was ok for him to leave and to go home to God and he heard me because he calmed down it was just me and him in the room at the time-today is his Memorial Service I have made so many batches of brownies and have to take chairs and things over to the church today so tonight just have to pick up the coffee-of course we are going to have a hard rain storm -please pray for good weather for us-I think I have used up my quota of prayers-take care friend

Your dad is blessed to have you. You are an angel placed here on earth. I wish the best for you, your family and peace for your father.
Know you have a lot of people thinking about you.

Dear Alena, thank you so much for your kind words and prayers. I appreciate them, and they help me to go on here. You take care too.

Dear Naus, you are so blessed to be surrounded by love and support from all your friends. I love hearing the way you comfort your dear Daddy, and are by his side. Praying you have some rest along the journey. The Lord be with you and your Dad. Take care, friend! :)

Thank you so much. You are a very dear friend. The hospice volunteers have knitted a blanket that is laying on dad. They said I can keep it. This brought me to tears. I was crying watching the pelicans fly in formation over the lake, while soft soothing music is playing from a cd for Dad. This is also making me cry, and typing this as well. I'm going to miss him so very much, and can't stand the thought of it. Have I really done everything I possibly could for him? I'm still going to insist that I could have always been better, even though others tell me not. I hate myself for all the ill thoughts I have ever had this past year in caregiving, and the petty complaints. I am being weak, I know.

Oh Naus. Every relationship has it's ups and downs. You make me want to cry with you for the turbulence with my Dad and now my mom although it is getting so much easier with mom because she can't remember half of what she says and I know its just a matter of time and I have come to realize it is just the natural course of things. easier than burying a child believe me. You have done a wonderful job you have overcome obstacles while doing it you have grown, you have met others in the same situation. You have learned to love in spite of so much adversity. Surely you know you made a difference in your Dads life as others see it to Yes it is hard it is okay to cry it is okay to feel the loss of your dad it is okay to be you God knows, God sees and God loves you as do all of us.

Dear Neon, thanks once again for reminding me I am only human. I could not imagine having to bury a child. My husband and I were on the elevator last night, and a staff memeber asked how we were doing, and my husband said not too good. And the staff person said it could be worse. Hubby said not much, and I said oh yes it can be much worse, it could be one of our children here instead. He said you are right. My prayers are always with you too, as I know you have lost a child. That would be the ultimate loss to have to deal with, and Neon you are so very strong. Much love to you friend.

Naus, I'm only as strong as I need to be at the moment I can handle all things thru Christ who dwells within me. you take care

Dear Naus, just as your very own beloved Daddy would forgive you for any thing said or done that might hinder you from restoring a good relationship with him, you must also forgive yourself. You have shown your Dad forgiveness and grace, and loved him. You must also forgive and give yourself the same measure of grace. God has, and if you ask his forgiveness, he does. Please don't be hard on yourself. Perhaps you should focus on your wonderful memories to see you through this trying time. We join you in prayer, are so very proud of you!

Thank you for your love and support.

Dear Sweet Naus, I am praying for you and your Dad. I just got in and read all the posts, I am so sorry for you, it sounds like your Dad is in very good hands and he has such a wonderful daughter I will keep you both in my prayers, take care , Michele

Dear Naus, haven't heard an update in a while. Just wondering how your Dad is doing. Know that our thoughts and prayers are with you.

Me to Naus praying for all of you.

May you feel blessed and inspired.

Wow, Alena, that was an incredible video, & had me in tears. Thanks for sharing it. I pray it's a blessing to Naus. Love to you, dear sisters.

Dear friends, just wanted to let you know that my Dad has been called home, and is at peace now. This just happened a little over an hour ago. He let me be in the room with him at the time. Just me and him. I am so thankful to him for that. God Bless you all, thank you for keeping us in your prayers.

Naus, I know it hurts but at the same time it is a relief, now he and my Dad can share stories about their loving daughters. God Bless you for the wonderful job you did taking care of your Dad and please know you are still in my prayers. Take your time you have lots to do in the next few days than breathe. love Cheryl

AAaaawww Naus.... my heart goes with you hon. There are just no words to express how sorry I am. My prayers are with you for peace and support during this time.

Dear Naus, I cry with you. What a journey you have had with him. I am so glad you had that special time alone with your Dad. I imagine you'll be busy, now, attending to many details. I pray for your strength and comfort. Will continue to keep you in prayer. God bless you and your family at this time, as you remember the life your Dad had while on earth, and consider his peaceful new home beyond.

Dear Naus, You have my deepest sympathy. I will continue to keep you and yours in my prayers, I pray God gives you all that you need during this difficult time, take care, Michele

Naus- my heart goes out to you I tried to write last night but the computer acted up and earased every thing you know you have done everything you could for your Dad and that should bring you comfort, we had the Memorial Service Wed night and it was well attended even though there were bad storms in the area and it was not sad it was more a celebration of his life.

Hi Naus and Austin, My prayers are with you. I just wanted you both to know as well as everyone else I am thinking of you in your time of sorrow. The Lord loves you and you have both done fantastic things for others. You should be so proud of yourselves, The Lord is. Love neon