As you all know if you read my posts, I have had terrible guilt about my father's hospice last summer....opting against sending my dad back to a rehab for 8 weeks of antibiotics with picc line, urinary catheter, feeding tube (I never had them, insert it), bedsore, delirium and mrsa/endocarditis/sepsis...….this hospice organization that represents patients responded to my inquiry about my dads hospice meds. I do feel guilty about not continuing treatments but obviously thought hospice wouldn't kill him....whether this guy is correct is anyones guess but my gut was that he was stealth euthanized...
Your father was clearly very sick and would have died naturally long before he died in this case if he had not been treated. That being said, you are correct that the amounts of medications were quite unnecessary.
Morphine 1 mg/hour (at the end) is 24 mg per day, yet he didn't need that for pain and this would certainly help keep him comatose and work to slow and stop the breathing.
Ativan (lorazepam) has a half life of about 12 hours, so 0.5 mg every 4 hours actually means giving 1.5 mg Ativan (and its metabolites stay in the system even longer). 0.5 mg given every 12 hours is common for elderly women who have anxiety all the time, but 1 mg will snow you or me for a day probably if you haven't been taking it regularly. 1.5 is not normal at all, even in hospice. 1 mg is given for those with true anxiety or when they have severe pain that can't be handled just with pain meds (and other meds are also given to help deal with those types of pain).
and the Haldol: hard to say since he was on it before and as you say, it helped him. But with the other meds it probably may not have been needed since he was made unconscious by the morphine and ativan.
Was it euthanasia? It was stealth euthanasia. Not declared euthanasia, hidden, deceptive treatment disguised as "care." There is a big push to have patients die sooner rather than later and they put such patients into hospice or palliative care settings for that purpose (but never tell the patients or families that is what they are doing).
It is not possible to know what would have happened had your father received different treatment. He may have died anyway shortly thereafter and had many problems but what he got was not what authentic hospice would provide (and most hospices today do not provide authentic hospice care that does not hasten death!). You may wish to read the Stealth Euthanasia book (online to read for free) to understand the industry.
But YOU are not responsible! They did this. And you were only trying to do what was right for your father and I'm sure he knew that. God knows it!
Put the responsibility where it belongs: they knew what they did and were doing for sure! Not you!