Last week I had my last treatment for breast cancer. For a month, I had been truly unable to visit mom in her memory facility (unité prothétique).
Now I can barely function in my own home and depend heavily on my retired husband because on top of all I have Sjogrën syndrome.
And I still feel guilty not to have visited mom. I plan to see her tomorrow and on Christmas Day, even if I'll miss all parties and even Christmas Mass.
Everybody tells me to focus on me as she is well cared of and relatively happy, but they can't know how we, caregivers, feel so damn responsible for the little happy moments we can give to those we used to comfort in their dementia!
Have the best of time and the peace of heart in this demanding Season!