Going down hill so rapidly now (in NH). Visited today, talked to her but she just kept on sleeping, surfacing occasionally. She's been 100% hallucinations and delusions for some time. She asked me to bring Jason to visit ... her dog, five dogs back, dead for so many years, then she slipped away into sleep again.
We've never been close ... she was the mother from h*ll and I've spent a life time avoiding her but we, children of NPD mothers, are trained from birth to do what the witch says, or else! ... she ruined my whole life one way and another but, in the end I sold my home, quit my career to care for her. Why? Duty, and only duty.
I feel she's about to pass now and I will make arrangements as set out in her will. I don't think I'll visit again .. it does nothing for her and upsets me for 24 hours.
Tonight the sun will set. Come tomorrow it will rise like a ball of fire and continue it's never ending journey, taking us along with it ... it's the circle of life. We do what we have to do, one way or another.