I've taken care of my folks since I was 9, I'm 45 and finally engaged but can't bear to stop caring for them. They are both near the point of needing a NH and I'm so torn over putting them in. I fly every two weeks from Denver to Detroit to spend two weeks caring for them. Caregivers are draining me ($1500 a week). I feel like I'm giving up on them by thinking about a NH but they need constant care. When I'm with them, I get no sleep, just constantly up n down. I want my life and don't want to end another (this is #13!!!) relationship b/c of my parents. 7 siblings all have their lives, I'm the one taking care of both of them now. I guess I'm looking for support and permission. Is it so wrong that I want a life with someone. It's too late for me to have kids but not to get married. Thanks to whoever writes back. There's more of course but can't be longwinded on here. lol.