Mother fell and I couldn't get her up because she's heavy. When something like this happens I feel anger and I hate it. How do I cope?
As I was helping my Mother get from her wheelchair to the toilet she began to fall and I couldn't get her up because she's heavy. I tried to lift her back on to the wheelchair and/or toilet but I couldn't do it. I felt myself getting so angry and frustrated that she couldn't help me help her. I love her so because she's all I have but when something like this happens I feel anger and I hate it, I hate myself for feeling it and then the guilt.
After it was over I went to her room and apologized and she told me she knows I'm tired and to forget about it. I want her to know she's loved because she certainly never forgets to let me know that she loves me.