I have been the sole caregiver for my father now for the past five months. Why do I feel guilty for not wanting to keep him company?
He is bed ridden and I cook clean garden, bathe, change etc. not to mention his constant companion. Recently I have found it depressing and frustrating to hang out with him the way I had been. Sometimes I will be in there for hours watching T.V. right next to him and I'll get up and he's suprised to see that i have been there all along. Other times It just gets frustrating that we have watched the same Western three days in a row but it's all new to him. Lately I have been in my room or in the living room watching my own shows or sewing. He doesn't seem to miss me but I feel terribly guilty. I see the change slowly becoming worse and realize it's innevitable. His initial prognosis stated he should have been gone 3 yrs ago. He has been through all the stages of death including renal shut down and nutrient withdrawl. He came out of it 4 months ago. I knew it was a temporary thing since he is riddled with cancer...How can I not feel guilty or try to force myself to keep him company all da