My mom has depression/deminta/Alzheimers. I am also disabled with Fibromyalgia. I've been either in tears or close to tears for the last week. My Mother keeps telling me to cut my hair (it is below my waist) and I've had it this way for most of my life. Two nights ago I got a pair of scissors and almost cut it all off, but I stopped myself. I'm just so sick and tired of being told to be quiet when my Mom starts in on me. It's like i'm some waiter/slave who is not allowed to speak.
I cook most of the meals. Clean, water gardens and hanging baskets, and tr to stay one step a head of them.
It bothers me that they will disappear, not telling me where they have gone, and then telling me that I could have gone along. I'm just so sick of this right now. I know that it is the Fibromyalgia raising it's ugly head, but it just seems that no one cares about me. I never get hugged. No one touches me. I don't have friends. And normally that would not bother me, but it is right now. I just need a shoulder to physically cry on and be held and I know it will never happen because my husband died in 2005. My son will not touch me or anyone else. Right now I wish I was dead.
My dad did his usual, he gave me a 50 dollar bill and told me to get out of here for a while. I don't know if that will help, but i guess i'll try.
Later -Be Well All - Sue