I feel guilty but some days I just wish that God would just take my mother-in-law home instead of watching her decline from Dementia. Am I normal for feeling this way?
I just find myself wishing that with this disease and plus all the other things that come along with the decline.....WHY? I just wish God would call her home so she and her family would not have to deal with this. AND I feel guilty, but I do not know how much longer I can mentally and physically deal with it. I hear and see her on a daily basis and I HATE the disease....I am so sad and lonely. It is as if you lose family, friends, and all your life to this disease. My husband takes over when he gets home, but by then I am on edge and sick from being around her all the time. I love her...but this disease makes me angry, sad, and lonely. I take good care of her, but I still wish God would take her home before she forgets who we all are altogether. Does anyone else feel these feelings? I feel guilty for wanting God to take her, but she really is not hear anyway...Just once in a blue moon now she is what you might say ok...Most days are bad....Do you feel this way? Am I normal with my feelings?