Well folks I haven't been on here for awhile. Here what has happened since then. Two months ago, I started a great job with decent salary and YES HEALTH BENEFITS& SICK LEAVE which I haven't have for over eight years so I am very thankful. Over a week ago,I finally have taken a small mini vacation out of state to see AC/DC in concert. I really had a good time. This is what I really needed. My brother watched my parents while I was at the concert. Brother said he and father fought like cat and dog. Dad didn't like me to be out of town for two days but he got over it. That was the first time I felt alive in a long time. However, I have gained about 10 to 15 lbs and stopped exercising and dieting routine for the past three months because I was stressing at my old,job and started a,new one and mom having a new issue to deal with low vision in one eye. I am happy I have a great job with my own office great pay but somehow I still feel depressed. There,are days I still cry for nothing. I just don't want my caregiver life to interfere with my new work too much. I feel blue because I feel I never going to date ever again but I just resigned to that scenario. It is not as if every man ringing my cell phone off the hook in the first place.