When a caregiver gives up everything including her marriage having absolutely no income for ten years, then being abused emotionally...
by her as well as my two sons, one 18, one 28. My 18 year old is autistic and is I feel as thoughthey only
care about how, when I'm deadly sick with hep c, currently being treated with Harvoni (extreme fatigue, leaving me wiped) as well as severe Bronchitis and down with C-Diff (gross), 3rd stage liver disease how that will affect them. Not any concern for my health. My mom has gotten to be very hateful.
she refuses to help me through the regspite I qualified for. I tried sooo hard to convince her to go to this adult day care. No way! She doesn't unde4rstand why I'm desperate to learn to put myself into this equation. Id better learn or I'm convinced, no dout, ill either have lost my sanity, my self-worth, my mental and emotional health. I have not been away from my mother for the last 9 years. I have spent everyday, with her, 24/7 (being mean and treating me as though I have it made. I so want to run away, be in my car , just keep going and never look back, Ive never been more afraid in my life as I am right now. My brothers, who did not want to disrupt there perfect lives couldn't be bothered but told me I will be out in the street when Mom goes. I need some mental health days and ways for me to put things into perspective, maybe get to know myself again. I'm more lost than Ive ever been before. I have been isolating myself and am incredibly lonely. One reason is out of ammbarrasement. I used to be a Proffessional Model and always took pride in my appearance. My teeth came out, Ive got wrinkles, and one breast I had augmented years ago went THHH(flat), II have 2 diseases, hep C and c-diff and always. The extreme stress I feel , now stems from not one member of my family asking if I feel alright, if there is anything they to do do help knowing we were having a hard time. Never happen. Nick is my Moms golden boy and me and my other son can fudge ourselves according to her. I so love my family but they are slowly killing me HELP!!!!!