What do I deserve?
I am a 45 year old stroke survivor. I moved in with my mom when my father died very unexpectedly 5 1/2 years ago. My mom has a limited disability that only prevents her from doing things she doesn't want to do. What I mean by that is this; she can't take the trash out but can go to baseball games every day if possible.
My strokes occurred about 2 years after I moved in with her. They were caused by my diabetes, undiagnosed hogh blood pressure and extreme stress and smoking. I have my health issues in pretty good control now. Only my stress level is beyond control.
My 71 year old mother agreed to keep my grandson, her great grandson, for 3 months. She agreed, I did not. I wasn't asked. I love my grandson dearly, he is 16 months old. I work 8 hours a day at my main job, Monday thru Friday. I also work weekends with my wonderful boyfriend. I take my grandson with me on the weekends as often as possible, he loves being outside with me and my BF. Even tho I try my best to do everything I can, it is just too much. We have 4 acres of grass to be cut and something always needs to be fixed. Pile her passive aggressive guilt trips on top of everything else and I am crumbling. FAST. My sister tries to help but she has 2 daughters at home and a husband and a stressful job and lives 3 hours away....
I feel stuck. I hate where with live ( the nearest gas station in 15 minutes away and it takes me 45 minutes to drive to work) I have to get up at 4:30 am just to get to work on time. I am exhausted. She has refused to move closer to where I work and I have no idea how to get out of this situation.
I could lose my BF over this just because he can't stand how Mom walks all over me. He is also caring for his mother but does not live with her.