We just got back from the Bahamas and when I called my mom she didn’t answer so we drove down to her house and I found her in the hospital!
She had her big toe amputated due to diabetic ulcers the day we left. She didn’t tell me they wanted her to go to the hospital, she wouldn’t go because she didn’t want me to cancel my vacation. I have been taking care of her 24/7 and we had this vacation planned for months and it was very expensive. I wouldn’t have canceled anyway and I would have felt better if she was in the hospital and my brother was there and I couldn’t have done anything anyway. I actually don’t feel guilty, is that bad? Now she is having a hickline placed Monday. We had to come home, but now she is refusing to go to rehabilitation therapy. She thinks I can do it all, yet when my father in law went she thought it was the best thing. Then she acts helpless with me, yet she acts completely different with everybody else. She talks about how all these people have offered to help her but she will never ask them. She thinks I can do it all. I am just at wits end. In her day she took care of her parents and my grandmother and grandpa so she will talk about that making me feel like it’s my responsibility, but I also have a brother a minute away. I am an hour and a half away. He actually had to take her to the hospital while we were gone and it’s like he saved the world. I don’t know if there is a question here but I needed to get this out I also have my own health problems.