I'm very angry today. I'm being used by family.
went to a counsellor today. she agreed that I am being used by my family. got in fight with mom today because she won't acknowledge how sh*tty my sister treats me and doesn't care. once again, my sister wouldn't be in my life except that my mom is staying with me after her stroke and sister wants to come over at her convenience. question: so a couple of days ago my sister announced to my mom that she wants to come over at 6pm tomorrow night and my mom said she would have to ask if that would work for me. mom didn't ask and then sister wrote her and said she is coming over at that time. didn't ask if it was ok with me, if I would be busy or whatever but sister only comes over here when she is already in town for something else and it has to be extremely convenient for her or she won't do it at all. this is not such a big deal in the scheme of things but it really p*ssed me off because it's just one more way she has disrespected me.. her schedule is extremely important and mine doesn't matter at all. I got really mad and told my mom that I wouldn't be available because I am sick and tired of being used as some kind of hotel/servant to my family. I hate my sister sooooo much it's almost unbearable. I don't want her over here at all any more. but my mom is staying here. there is nowhere else for her to go at this point. she could stay at my sisters but she doesn't want her over there. I am so. sick. and. tired. of. being USED. tried to do the right thing by my mom and my wonderful family is just walking all over me. counsellor agreed it's a tricky situation. I think I have just about had it with my sister and her treating me like sh*t. sorry for the cussing. I am really really mad. I think going to the counsellor made me even more angry. no one in my family cares about me. they are all looking out for themselves. no one cares about me. I am all alone. why should sticking up for myself mean being cut off from people...? I don't know but if I ever try to stick up for myself, I am just met with anger and rejection. my horrible sister is now ruining my one relationship that I thought was good. the one with mom. i just can't win.