Right now her health is ok. And she isn't driving me crazy with her problems. I should be grateful. And I am. But next Sunday I am supposed to go to baseball game. And at the end of September my husband and I are going on vacation to a B26 reunion in another state and staying three extra days to sightsee. Dont know if Mom will end up in hospital during those times. And mess up my plans. Also have anxiety disorder. My anxiety is pretty low right now. But still have some anxiety about steeps and escalator at baseball game. And lost lugage on trip. Sort of tired of life. Wish I could live anxiety and stress free. Trying to live in the moment. Have been for a few months. Getting tired of life. My life is pretty good at the moment. I shouldn't feel this way. Especially compared to the past difficulties. Don't know why I feel like this.