I am SO overwhelmed!
Hello, I am very grateful I found this site, I'm 48, I work full time, and I have been living with an elderly friend for over 3 years, he is 79 and he's definitely in decline with mostly age-related concerns. He means a lot to me so I don't at all not want to be here, I just don't know how to sort through all the details: running the household, taking care of his not so healthy cat, errands, cleaning, cooking, doctor appointments, prescriptions and on and on. I work full time as I stated, in a pretty demanding job but they are extremely accommodating and flexible so it's fine, but time to myself is rare, at least not big blocks of it, I can get snippets here n there. My biggest concern lately is his short term memory loss, I feel so helpless because it's a battle against an unseen enemy. His family have been completely useless, yes I'm being judgmental, because I can count on two hands the numbers of times each of his sons have called just to say hello, let alone offer to do something, if anything just to give me a break. Quite frankly I'm disgusted and I can barely contain myself when I have to see these people. This smartphone is my only outlet, it provides immediate at the ready entertainment whether books, music, or movies, in addition to its obvious functions. Kinda lame that this is my only social life I suppose, but I just don't have the time for anything else. I have had to give up every hobby I had, for reasons stated, but also because of the guilt. Guilt. Oh the guilt. Did I mention guilt?! My friend certainly doesn't cause me to feel this way, in fact he's encouraged me to go out and do things with people. But picturing him there alone really upsets me and leads to unnecessary worry not unlike first time parents leaving their children with the sitter for the first time. Because taking care of my friend is like having a child, and I don't at all mean that in a disrespectful way. So please please please respond in kind with whatever you can offer, just knowing there are others out there in the same boat makes it a little more comforting, even though I don't know why that is.