Just venting. I am so sick of the title of "whine moment today". I want to call it something else. We aren't whining, we are just saying it like it is. We can't all afford to go to a therapist, we are just talking to other human beings that are going thru the same things we are. We want to know we are not alone.If anything I am sick of hearing from people who say "well they took care of us when we were little" Listen to what you are saying. When your parents were taking care of you when you were little , which they were supposed to do since they brought you into this world without your input, they were in their 20's,30's. Now "we" that "owe" them are in our 50's 60's' 70's trying to take care of demented, immobile ,incontinent sometimes violent people with few monetary resources because many gave up their jobs, can't get help from siblings or other relatives and we are expected to give up our lives. Also some of us are taking care of people that abused us as children such as myself.Put them in AL or a NH before it kills you.Sure you will feel guilty,but you can get over guilt.Again, that's why these places have shifts of people that do this, anyone trying to do this by themselves 24/7 is committing suicide.YOU CAN"T DO THIS!.It's hard to accept this,it's not like you are throwing them in a ditch.Children's minds grow, learn, get potty trained. Not with geriatric care, it is a downward spiral.Sometimes all you can do for someone is make sure they are safe, clean and fed if they can eat. And for God's sake don't let someone guilt you into putting in a feeding tube.It just prolongs' the enevitable.Dying is part of life.I worked in a MICU, medical intensive care unit,OMG! the things I saw family's let doctor's talk them into doing to their 90 something parents. Let these people die at home. DNR does not mean do not treat, at least not at the hospital I worked at. It just meant that if they stopped breathing we didn't put a giant *ss plastic tube through their vocal chords because that is where it is placed and now they can't talk and put them on a ventilator and now you have to sedate them because it ain't pleasant being on one, I know, I have been on one briefly.Also if their heart stops we don't give drugs to try to get it started or do chest compressions because no matter how well they are done ,ribs get broken, lungs get punctured, a code is a brutal thing to witness, it ain't like it is on TV.Talk with your parents before dementia, talk with your spouse what you do and don't want done because if you don't you will get a phone call in the middle of the night and that is a h*ll of a time to make a life and death decision and sometimes we didn't have time to make the phone call because if their is no advanced directive we had intubate and the whole 9 yards.Why let your "loved" lay in a NH for YEARS, yes years the human body can exist and that is all it is , existence,some don't even know they are human.Hospice is still a dirty word for a lot of MD"s, they just can't let go like they are trying to win a football game and somehow it reflects on them.Unless they can make the person younger death will come.The only thing we have control over is to make our loved one comfortable, not afraid and that ain't gonna happen in a hospital. A good hospice can do everything at your home except put them on a ventilator or do cpr.They can give antibiotics,I see that as comfort care, also O2.narcotic pumps,quit calling 911 your only extending the pain,the ER can't fix 90 year old people.And if a MD is trying to talk you into a transplant, think it through, I worked in a transplant unit, you either did great or lingered and died. The antirejection drugs are a 2 edge sword, transplant is not a cure,you trade one set of problems for another set of problems but sometimes that second set of problems you have a slightly better quality of life.Talk to others about death, it seems to be the big elephant in the room, well it's there and it ain't going away.Also for those of you that might be facing breast cancer,really think it through about reconstruction, I been in the OR many times thru these surgerys, it's brutal.Speaking only for myself I would never have it done, just take my boobs, I don't identify myself as a woman because of my boobs,I won't risk infection and longer anesthetic time so I can wear a bra.Well, I guess you can call this my rant for the day. I just hate to read people just agonizing over what's the right thing to do for mama,who is 70-90.I don't think I ever read anywhere in the bible to stick moma on a ventilator.