I'm ready to be done.
I've been taking care of my mom since my dad passed away in 2007. I'm 34 years old now and my mom is now 70. So for the majority of my young years I've been using it taking care of her. It wasn't SO bad until this past year. My mom previously could dress herself, walk around (with a walker) and she was pretty independent. The only things I had to do for her was laundry, cook, put her medicine in her pillboxes and take her to doctor's appointments. Then she had a slip and fall accident last year and bumped her head on the floor really hard. It screwed up the nerves in her neck and stopped her from being able to walk or even move correctly. She had surgery. But now she went from being independent to being TOTALLY dependent. I now change diapers, bathe her and do everything under the sun for her.
I'm just 34 years old. I'm SO tired. I want a husband before I get too old. I may want a kid. I want to LIVE. I feel like every day is devoted to her. Where is my life?
I feel bad. And I also don't know what to do financially. I work at home, but it's not enough to pay the bills. So how can I even live on my own? It's just been her and I for all these years. But I need to figure this out. I decided that i need to give myself a timeline/deadline in order to figure out what I'm going to do financially, so I can live on my own and my mom can be in a nursing home or something.
I need to be able to live my life before I look up and it's over. I have nothing, I've done nothing... I've helped as much as my sanity can take it and then some.