Past breaking point.
Hi there, and I just wanna say first off that even just typing everything gives some kind of relief. I am glad that there are sites like this.
My mother has Multiple Sclerosis, and more recently, dementia. She has been in a chair for the majority of my life, and requires total assistance in transferring, standing, bathing, etc. The really tough part is her dementia. She is not able to retain much of anything we tell her anymore, and she gets very aggressive, physically and verbally. I am unable to have conversations I'd like to with my mother, because she will end up hysterical. I am only 20 years old and have yet to further my education/my life because no one will take care of my mother. My father works full time and makes it plenty clear that he has enough on his hands when it comes to helping out my mother. For almost 10 years now, we have been receiving help at home through different agencies. Unfortunately we can never find a stable care giver. Many people have come through our home and stolen from my mother, taken advantage of her, just up and left, or not done even a thing. I have started working at an agency so I could pick up a few days to 'officially care' for my mother. Since the most recent caregiver left about two weeks ago, without ANY notice (to this day), I have been working solely for m mother. I am so frustrated, and I believe that a family member can not be the only care in these types of situations. I have contacted everyone in the agency, who has only left me with "we'll try to find someone else" with no inkling of any time, or if this person is even a good fit for my mother. I feel like a terrible person because I seem to quickly nowadays get impatient easily. I am doing everything in this house, and I am left with no life. I love my mother very much, but working for her everyday has pushed me past my breaking point. I have spent the last years just trying not to end each night in tears. I would love to go to college and further my life, but no one will care for my mother. I am completely out of ideas and I just feel hopeless at this point.
Once again, major thanks for just a place like this even to vent.