Love has flown the coop.
Peter, a gentleman(?) I fell in love with over 2 years ago, has become impossibly self-centered and vicious. He has so many ills that I find I can't list them all here. Brain wasting is one. ADHD is another. Diabetes. Obesity. Social Anxiety Disorder. Non Rem or REM sleep disorder. (he has attacked me physically in his sleep-to the point where I have had to fight back to save my sorry skin.) He has been loving and caring in the past, but has changed into a 300 lb. 58 year old toddler. Everything that goes wrong in "my fault." he refuses to even take responsibility for his actions. the verbal abuse is beyond the pale. I am no longer in love, nor do I even "love" him any longer. It's just a question of who outlives whom now for me. Yesterday he did nothing but self-diagnose online all day and come running to me every 5 minutes with this "information." Hypochondria ruled the day. I had just had oral surgery-wisdom tooth-and was in no mood to deal. Nor did I have the wish to leave my own house. (yes he is living with me. Yes I am footing all the bills.) I am an idiot and I am ready to kill-either him or myself. I won't but still...self-centered, irresponsible, forgetful, easily agitated if he doesn't get "his way" I am at an end. I swear. The only shrink I have been to around here has not been helpful. She basically said that all this is my fault. cannot and will not see another one. can't afford it. Help.