Mom passed Friday night.
I know I haven't posted very much on here, but I have spent hours on end on this site reading through forums and commenting on a few. I found much comfort on this site.
Mom had stage 4 cancer that spread to her brain and spine. She couldn't walk, and could barely see. She was only 51. I dropped out of college in December to come home and take care of her.
I'm only nineteen. I should be losing my mom this young. There's so much we were suppose to do. She was suppose to see me graduate college, get married, have children...
I feel so guilty. Taking care of her full time depleted my patience I had for everything. Many nights when she'd call for me every half hour I'd be so frustrated. I somewhat resented her for making me have to drop out of school, leaving my friends and boyfriend, and having my life become a complete 180.
Now, I would do it all again if I could. Just to have a little more time with her. I just want one more hug. One more I love you. Though I'm relieved she's no longer suffering, I'd give anything to have her here with me.
I know it's easier said than done, but enjoy the time you have taking care of your parents. When they go, you'll miss them more than you could possibly imagine.