Recap= Mom lives with me & I am a caregiver of many. Mom, cancer sister, Renal disease my little BEAUTIFUL girl, & my Autistic/Adhd little boy. Stressed out! Chest pains ugh!!! And So many drs apptments! She wants to talk &I try so hard to be patient cuz I am pretty patient normalky but its too much! She tells me the same stuff or argues with me. I can not handle it. I cant go anywhere cuz she gets sad. I invite her everywhere! Of which she says no. Im afraid when I escape for fear that she will be hurt etc. So I got her life alert! I have many family members who dont want to help. There time to party is more precious! I need a break or I will DIE! My stress is this bad! My babies need me as does mom & sis! People say Im so good I do this with so much LOVE FOR THEM ALL! Im just sick dr said I have a mass in my uterus, I think its fibroid wants it taken out for biopsy but my blood count is 4 Anemia so they wanted to give me blood transfusion of which I refused! I walked out & told the hospital I will take iron pills! People need me! Which was a dumb decision I know but im going to yet another drs appt this time its for me. Family.... should be helpful. So much selfishness in this world. I am alone yet I find comfort in WHINING HERE! I want to scream my anxiety chest pains are so much worse! Im scared so much illnesses & sadness all around me! Im the strength but weakening & deteriorating fast! They need me! I laying here cant sleep crying over so much! I thought to take handful of Xanax just to relax! But that was stupid! I love & respect life, family, & God way too much! One day one weekend thats all I beg for! My life is not my own anymore! & Thats horrible to say because I LOVE EVERYONE! Please continue to pray for my family, my strength, my sanity, & my health!