Not Sure How Much More Loss I Can Take... Losing my Mother-In-Law was harder that I thought.
For those of you who have not seen me on the boards in a while, my MIL was rushed to ER over two weeks ago with fluid in her lungs, etc. She ended up within a week coding twice and needed an emergency quad bypass.
She passed away, or I should say gave up on April 16th. She was in the cardiac unit and her daughter was with her helping her shower. When she came back out and sat in the cardiac chair, her daughter said you could just see it in her eyes. She didn't want this life anymore. Seconds later she coded and was gone.
My husband (her son) is coping better with it than I. She was more of a mother to me than my own mother was. She was my buddy, helped me with so much in life. It has just left a huge hole.
When I saw my own mother (for those of you who have read my past posts) she reacted more shocked about this one than when her own sister passed away about a month ago. But quickly mom went back to her selfish ways. I'll give you an example....
Last week when I told her about my MIL, and that the recovery would probably fall mostly on my husband and I, my mother got ticked off because she would not be getting the attention. You could see it in her eyes. She promptly stated that for the past two weeks (while my husband's mother was in the hospital), she had sporadic slurred speech but that she was fine now. Come to find out that my mother actually told the nurse she had slurred speech and believed she was having a stroke (which was NOT true).
I just can't help but cry at the thought of losing a friend, despite how we disagreed. My husband can't believe I'm taking the loss of his mother harder than he is. I tried to explain to him that my parents all my life swept death under the rug and I never knew until months later about family members passing. I'd never been "close" to it so to speak. Then on top of never having a functional mother just added to all this.
Anyway, I've missed everyone, and thank you in advance. It has just been a lousy few weeks, and definitely unexpected. I just can't believe that she gave up like that... almost instantly. I stand shocked and bewildered. I just don't get it.