I love my mom, but I really don't like her anymore.
I am the only person who cares for my 92 year old mother. Due to her behavior and actions throughout her life, everyone has pulled away from her. I am in the unfortunate position of being the only sibling who lives near her. Her latest round of illness has landed her in intensive care for the past week. I truly think she doesn't care if she gets better. She just wants to lie in bed and be sick, even though the nurses tell me that she is doing better and will soon be moved to a step-down unit. She makes a huge deal out of it when they want her to sit up in a chair. They have told her that staying in bed will only make her worse and worse. She has started being mean to me as well. She suffers from mild dementia and is hard of hearing. I find that I feel less and less like being involved. I am exhausted, depressed, and angry. How do you deal with the feelings of anger? I've tried staying away for a day or so, but end up feeling guilty. I guess I just want to hear from someone who has been there.